Oh Baby!

Today was my 34 week appointment and all is still well! I am measuring large - about 36 weeks. With each passing week I feel relieved that I don't have a preemie. As the due date gets closer, though, I am starting to wonder if this baby will ever make an appearance. Who knows, with all these prayers for our family, including prayers that this baby stay in, I might not EVER give birth. Please, everyone who is reading this, DON'T LET AN ETERNAL PREGNANCY BE YOUR FAULT!!! :-)

All kidding aside, I appreciate all of the prayers for our family more than anyone can know. I can honestly FEEL the changes that have come as a result of those prayers. We feel so comforted every time someone says they are praying or fasting for our family, or when people mention that they've put Matthew on a Temple's prayer roll. It means a lot, and there is power in everyone's combined faith.

We had a very positive day again today. Matt went to school, remembered things I didn't expect him to remember, and had a lot of energy. Tonight he was quite tired, but he's had a busy couple of days. Of course, though, I can't help but worry that the tiredness is his hematocrit (red blood cells), which was slightly low on his blood draw this week. I hate that a child being a little bit tired, can't just be dismissed as a child who is a little bit tired. I feel like I'm always looking for something 'wrong'. It's not just Matt, either, I worry so much about my other boys, as well. I've never been a paranoid mom about, well, anything. I think germs are a normal part of life, don't obsess about sugar, and think that my kids will be just fine no matter how advanced or behind they are in preschool. That's why this diagnoses for Matt has put me through such a loop. Now I feel justified, almost obligated, to consider obscure illnessess in my children for every little thing. Instead of my usual, "Oh, it's probaby nothing. Just give it a week and it will most likely go away", I now worry that everything is a brain tumor!

Oh well! Everyone have a great weekend. I need to think of something FUN to do since Matt is feeling so great!

Love,
-Alli